| Songs of the Conspiracy |
This is my upheaval Help me bake my tears The world changes again Can't accept your demands Please please help me I can't see inside, help me to cry Please please help me I can't see inside, help me to cry Remember those people I remember those people There in the sunset glow Why me to be alone? Please please help me I can't see inside, help me to cry Please please help me I can't see inside, help me to cry I can't bear to love him I don't want to be here today It was nothing, never wear your heart on your sleeve It was nothing, never wear your thoughts on your sleeve It was nothing, never wear your soul on your sleeve It was nothing it was nothing it was nothing You said it wasn't a mistake. Lyrics by K. Carney August 1996
A dream
Is a perfume
I breathe in visions
Only scratching the surface
Of meaning
Not relative but disassembled
To think is to feel is to reduce pain
Setting free one's mind
What would soar?
The waters well
I couldn't care
We release us
We release us
Lyrics by K. Carney, December 1995
All these things I've got to say They sour, ferment, and fall in Candy-coated bible stares Fall voices, falling figures left behind I'll be leaving the dream I'll be leaving the word To fall around you let him fall To fall around you let him fall He stands around you let him crawl He stands around you he's so small lyrics barry mccabe
He steps outside his door and pulls it closed behind. He sighs and looks up to the sky. Another lifeless day. Another day behind him. The sky seems to laugh at him. He's gonna ride the jetstream to a new home. In a new land with a new face and place just for him. She sits alone at night with wishes on her mind. Stares into the deep night sky. Her arms up in the air. The stars so far away. Maybe she'll make it there someday. She's gonna ride the jetstream. Lift off and blow away. The heavens are waiting for her, waiting to absorb her.
I can't sleep in this room The walls are creeping in The light is hiding something Something deep within Going to the fountain Carefully down the walk I've got this awful feeling I've done this all before. In a balloon My method of transportation Directionless by nature Timeless in duration The ceiling is falling out But it can be replaced The walls are caving in But it doesn't matter The vision of time passed Is one that here lets loose It knocks you over the head Digging through destruction In a balloon My method of transportation Directionless by nature Timeless in duration Lyrics July 17th, 1995
I don't want to go there I just want to stay I don't want to walk there I don't want to move I don't want to come home Lost is where I'll be I just want to raise my arms and Float Away I don't want an answer Not even a word Words don't tell me The secrets I've heard I don't want a fortune If money is time I just want to close my eyes and Drift away There are some things Best leave alone The face that haunts me A signal unknown A silent answer is all to clear I just want to close my eyes (lyrics & music 6/23/95)
Almost like a raygun blasting through the atmosphere scorching the fatal earth below I must get on the radio They will hear me is this trickery or is this really so clear have I given up all fear fantasize about flying another one of those dreams feeling so weightless the sky is infinite No longer do you give me that certain hollow feeling a smile when I first see you is my therapy from the world I must go soon they will hear me the sky is infinite and it's my open book
Big city bound The World is underneath my feat. And friends are near. An Answer to my prayers lies ahead. A heavenly voice to guide me. I may never sleep again. I may never speak again. Six Towers hover in the air. Radiating endlessly. Secrets are too hard to keep. They've never really kept me. A radio unit is how I speak. Citizens band isn't banned from me. Rolling towards infinity or the city, whichever comes first. An Answer to my prayers lies ahead. A heavenly voice to guide me. I may never sleep again. I may never speak again. Six Towers hover in the air. Radiating endlessly. Secrets are too hard to keep. They've never really kept me.
I never want to stay I never want to leave. And all I have to do is make you believe. I'm endlessly awake Deprived of all my dreams And now I know for sure Nothing is as it seems.
Wanting just to go away Wanting just to leave this place Dreaming of another so far away Dreaming of some other time and space that's what today brings out. Left so bluntly Left alone Waking up and rubbing the salt from my eyes. Clutching tightly, I never want to leave Some machines are out there, grab me up someday So much I thought I gave, so little came my way Left so bluntly Left alone Waking up and rubbing the salt from my eyes. Clutching tightly, I never want to leave I'm not inquiring but an answer is all I want
Covered in ashes Watched my world burn Combustion ignited By a simple word Everything Vanished (I) watched it go away Swimming into the deepest part but trying never did me any good Spontaneous Combustion Engine Covered in ashes Watched my world burn Given it all to the taker Signed on the dotted line. Everything gone now. Distant Childhood Years Sinking down into the deepest part Who needs oxygen anyway Spontaneous Combustion Engine Lyrics July 17th, 1995
color, clean and kitten blue red gray and kissing brown leather and skin making it up again six times three kisses, smiles and queens dances around me dances and leaves weeding through perpetual emotion weeding through endless ideas fifteen ways to see six pieces and mirrors six times three kisses, smiles and queens dances around me dances and leaves lyrics 10/96 to 11/96 barry mccabe
bizarre and similar, you and I are path the same, and twist the same similar and familiar similar and... bizarre and similar, you and I are view by click and swept away similar and familiar similar bits and...
Truest burning Everything you've ever had is flown Ashes to memories And memories to dust Beauty gone what is there A path outside Or someone calling Beauty gone what is there A path outside Or someone calling What is to feel A spicy concoction is love Stillness eyes mine are hopeful Please to keep intact Beauty gone what is there A path outside Or someone calling Beauty gone what is there A path outside Or someone calling When summer comes I'll need something When summer comes I'll need something I'll need something When summer comes I'll need something I'll need something to deaden my heart. Lyrics: K. Carney (11/95)